2/12/08
i got the internship. seriuosly, i really got it. what internship, you ask? if you aren't dedicated to each and every post i've made in this blog, as well as my other, i will refresh your memory. i applied for citigal's charm school internship (you can read my essay here) a few days ago. when i opened my email this morning, i found a simple acceptance letter stating that not only would i be participating in the charm school, but that my essay is going to be published in the march issue of citigal magazine!
i've been panicking all morning. not only am i doing this, but i'm getting my first technical byline! i've been writing more, having been inspired by michelle dobbs' entry in the amazon competition. for me, it's always hard to write with the intention of sending something out. the fear of success is sometimes more paralyzing than the fear of failure, and so many of my pieces sit quietly in boxes.
i am feeling a million things at once right now. i suppose the overwhelming feeling has to do with the fact that things really are starting to work out. since the beginning of this program, and even before, i've been working to show that i'm worth the trouble. the proof is starting to surface in a visible way.
tonight, i'm headed to a networking event at the italian community center put on by the association for women in communications. there will be women all around to talk to about my portfolio and resume, as well as seemingly obvious things that i have no idea about (read: how to dress for work and interviewing. veronica tells me jeans with holes in them are unacceptable.) i think there will also be ladies talking about personal finances (something i've always been very interested in) and finding a mentor.
this is amazing. amazing. i was telling james yesterday in my IDP that i feel i haven't had a real opportunity to do what i'm good at yet. i talked to him about my disillusionment with the nonprofit sector, because even when you work hard, there really isn't any recognition. i am eating my words, and that's quite alright with me.
"if at first you don't succeed, try, try again. then quit. there's no use being a damn fool about it."
-w.c. fields
Showing posts with label IDP. Show all posts
Showing posts with label IDP. Show all posts
Tuesday
Monday
chinacostaricavietnamthailand
10/24/07
had my IDP with james and veronica. still up to my ears in busywork, but not dollar bills. decided to do a goal which revolves around my desire to get TEFL certified, james wants to check in on it in about six months. i can get college credit, but i have to do the classes online, which should take about 2 months. i guess if i don't go out of the country, i can use part of my money from the education grant to pay for it, because it's based out of the roosevelt university in chicago. the only thing is you have to log on every day and do the work online. that could get tricky, i'm awful at the internet.
i was looking at the different places that would let me teach without a b.a. and it looks like china's the best bet. with it's close proximity to india, inclusive housing and the fine art of mandarin, i think i could have a good time with samadhi. apparently, you can also do private tuoring and double your income. sounds like a good way to get things rolling instead of just hoping i can ge myself together, especially considering the declining value of the good old american greenback.
we're all getting ready for make a difference day. our committees have been working on this for a while now, and i'm glad it's almost over. i've got 2 huge boxes of toiletries under my desk, but it smells like a soap box in my office. i kind of loathe it. i'm also making a huge lot of chili for the weekend, because we couldn't get anyone to donate food. dave got annona bistro to donate some brekkie, and i got some stuff from beans and barley, but that's all she wrote.
james and i took the toiletries over to the PA office in the grand, and i ended up on the spot. there was an introductory meeting there and we were all spotlighted amidst chili and donation solicitation. it was nice, april and rob were there too. chili was had by all.
nothing too much exciting. lots of work to be done. i had a presentation at la causa community center, it was really great. the group was so small, and they looked relieved that i could talk with them a bit in spanish and answer their questions. i even got a couple of people interested in volunteering. that would take care of that part of my requirements.
i realized this will be better for me once i complete the requirements of the program. that way, i can focus on having a good time instead of just numbers. numbers give me anxiety attacks.
had my IDP with james and veronica. still up to my ears in busywork, but not dollar bills. decided to do a goal which revolves around my desire to get TEFL certified, james wants to check in on it in about six months. i can get college credit, but i have to do the classes online, which should take about 2 months. i guess if i don't go out of the country, i can use part of my money from the education grant to pay for it, because it's based out of the roosevelt university in chicago. the only thing is you have to log on every day and do the work online. that could get tricky, i'm awful at the internet.
i was looking at the different places that would let me teach without a b.a. and it looks like china's the best bet. with it's close proximity to india, inclusive housing and the fine art of mandarin, i think i could have a good time with samadhi. apparently, you can also do private tuoring and double your income. sounds like a good way to get things rolling instead of just hoping i can ge myself together, especially considering the declining value of the good old american greenback.
we're all getting ready for make a difference day. our committees have been working on this for a while now, and i'm glad it's almost over. i've got 2 huge boxes of toiletries under my desk, but it smells like a soap box in my office. i kind of loathe it. i'm also making a huge lot of chili for the weekend, because we couldn't get anyone to donate food. dave got annona bistro to donate some brekkie, and i got some stuff from beans and barley, but that's all she wrote.
james and i took the toiletries over to the PA office in the grand, and i ended up on the spot. there was an introductory meeting there and we were all spotlighted amidst chili and donation solicitation. it was nice, april and rob were there too. chili was had by all.
nothing too much exciting. lots of work to be done. i had a presentation at la causa community center, it was really great. the group was so small, and they looked relieved that i could talk with them a bit in spanish and answer their questions. i even got a couple of people interested in volunteering. that would take care of that part of my requirements.
i realized this will be better for me once i complete the requirements of the program. that way, i can focus on having a good time instead of just numbers. numbers give me anxiety attacks.
Thursday
old friends
9/10/07
i arrived an entire hour early for the training session. james was waiting in the rain, i invited him into the car and we chatted a bit about the program. everyone is pretty comfortable with each other now. it's interesting to see the intrinsic relationships, the way that people are leaning towards each other in these new friendships.
for the first session, we talked about the 4 basic requirements of graduation: 1.)presentation of learning, or POL 2.)Portfolios, professional and personal 3.)360 evaluation/IDP and 4.) personal inventory service document, or PISD. aren't acronyms the cutest?
we had a panel discussion from former allies dave and susan.
we took a break and re-convened at the friend's meeting house (ironically) to talk about diversity. these are going to be big fights, close to personal parts of our hearts. everyone is still walking on eggshells and trying not to offend each other; perhaps this is everyone's way of trying to use the appropriate language and thereby learn about diversity through sympathetic eyes. i can't say just yet.
i know one of my goals is to be a better listener, but these topics set me aflame. round two is a bit more truthful, people are beginning to reveal their "personal prejudices" as well as fears of being discriminated against. this is a learning experience for me; the conflict of interests makes for learning experiences.
the topic of self-hatred has been brought up. that is the root of so many of these problems. if we could see beyond our own issues and insecurities, problems would dissipate.
i arrived an entire hour early for the training session. james was waiting in the rain, i invited him into the car and we chatted a bit about the program. everyone is pretty comfortable with each other now. it's interesting to see the intrinsic relationships, the way that people are leaning towards each other in these new friendships.
for the first session, we talked about the 4 basic requirements of graduation: 1.)presentation of learning, or POL 2.)Portfolios, professional and personal 3.)360 evaluation/IDP and 4.) personal inventory service document, or PISD. aren't acronyms the cutest?
we had a panel discussion from former allies dave and susan.
we took a break and re-convened at the friend's meeting house (ironically) to talk about diversity. these are going to be big fights, close to personal parts of our hearts. everyone is still walking on eggshells and trying not to offend each other; perhaps this is everyone's way of trying to use the appropriate language and thereby learn about diversity through sympathetic eyes. i can't say just yet.
i know one of my goals is to be a better listener, but these topics set me aflame. round two is a bit more truthful, people are beginning to reveal their "personal prejudices" as well as fears of being discriminated against. this is a learning experience for me; the conflict of interests makes for learning experiences.
the topic of self-hatred has been brought up. that is the root of so many of these problems. if we could see beyond our own issues and insecurities, problems would dissipate.
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